I understand what a heartbreak or simply not being with a lover u love the most in the world feels like. I finally do. Before when someone came to me saying that they are hurt cause their beloved rejected him/her i used to take it very lightly and just give a random advice, “just move on dude get over her/him”. It was very easy to say “ur not my type” or “sorry, we can’t be together” and in addition to console them “you’ll get someone much better than me, we’re just not meant to be”…….. so easily words used to flow then cause I had not felt that emptiness myself. That silence on the outside which is a total contrast to the loud inner voice that is dying to speak out and say those magical words to that special someone. To embrace that special person and cry your heart out to tell how much it hurts to not be in their company, to miss them and still act normal as if you don’t feel anything at all…. it’s hard, it really is.
To get cutoff from talking day and night, functioning it as a daily routine aka being habituated to it and suddenly it all stops in a second, damn it’s painful.
When people used to post stuffs related to love it seemed a bit of exaggeration to me until i fell for one too. Then the heart breaks post used to be like “what in earth are they talking about, why ain’t they together instead of writing this all in social sites and blablaaa…”. Honestly i used to hate such posts and people who kept on murmuring about it. And now that I stand in the same place, I finally understand what they must have gone through and how dissapointing and miserable their life might have been. Nomatter what the reasons be for them to not be with that special someone, heartbreak is a heartbreak and is painful than anything else. It’s a feeling that can be understood by only those people who have been through this or are going through it.
I finally have respect to those people who have dealt with it by sorting it out together or getting over it. I salute you all for getting over such a big battle of emotions. I hope no one has to go through this phase where it feels like you are alive but with no soul, where you’re walking but walking dead #emotionally, where you smile on the outside while you cry every night to sleep, where you are socializing in a room filled with people yet can never get over the loneliness that you feel on the inside…….
It’s hard going through a heartbreak/ simply not being with your lover, that’s why I wish no one will ever have to go through this.
Stay blessed people, stay happy and enjoy the moment you all are living in, who knows what tomorrow’s sunshine will bring.