Heartbreak

I understand what a heartbreak or simply not being with a lover u love the most in the world feels like. I finally do. Before when someone came to me saying that they are hurt cause their beloved rejected him/her i used to take it very lightly and just give a random advice, “just move on dude get over her/him”. It was very easy to say “ur not my type” or “sorry, we can’t be together” and in addition to console them “you’ll get someone much better than me, we’re just not meant to be”…….. so easily words used to flow then cause I had not felt that emptiness myself. That silence on the outside which is a total contrast to the loud inner voice that is dying to speak out and say those magical words to that special someone. To embrace that special person and cry your heart out to tell how much it hurts to not be in their company, to miss them and still act normal as if you don’t feel anything at all…. it’s hard, it really is.
To get cutoff from talking day and night, functioning it as a daily routine aka being habituated to it and suddenly it all stops in a second, damn it’s painful.
When people used to post stuffs related to love it seemed a bit of exaggeration to me until i fell for one too. Then the heart breaks post used to be like “what in earth are they talking about, why ain’t they together instead of writing this all in social sites and blablaaa…”. Honestly i used to hate such posts and people who kept on murmuring about it. And now that I stand in the same place, I finally understand what they must have gone through and how dissapointing and miserable their life might have been. Nomatter what the reasons be for them to not be with that special someone, heartbreak is a heartbreak and is painful than anything else. It’s a feeling that can be understood by only those people who have been through this or are going through it.
I finally have respect to those people who have dealt with it by sorting it out together or getting over it. I salute you all for getting over such a big battle of emotions. I hope no one has to go through this phase where it feels like you are alive but with no soul, where you’re walking but walking dead #emotionally, where you smile on the outside while you cry every night to sleep, where you are socializing in a room filled with people yet can never get over the loneliness that you feel on the inside…….

It’s hard going through a heartbreak/ simply not being with your lover, that’s why I wish no one will ever have to go through this.
Stay blessed people, stay happy and enjoy the moment you all are living in, who knows what tomorrow’s sunshine will bring.

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Little tips on life =)

Don’t you have those days, when you pity on yourself. When you feel like you’re feelings, emotions or simply your whole life is breaking apart leaving you with hollowness and depression. While you continue your daily routine, college life, hanging around with friends, job and colleagues, family, relatives everyone is right there yet you feel like something is missing out. I’m not talking about a lover or a companion but a part of yourself.
A part that you used to like, that passionate you, mischievous, naughty, the one who didn’t think twice about doing the things you wanted, the one who saw everything with a different perspective, the one who smiled foolishly and whole heartedly in stupid jokes and scenarios, the one who saw hope even in the darkest of things!!
Don’t you miss that part of you? Which seems to have lost in this world of chaos, jealousy and hatred. You are trapped into your own illusion of what people might think or what they might be assuming or do they even like me or not abd bla bla blaablaaa….!!! You’re not even sure if they are actually thinking about you or bitching about you and your acts. Yet you’re here punishing yourself by thinking something that shouldn’t even matter and killing the innocence of the real you that has seemed to be lost since the past months. 
Thinking too much and putting yourself in the wrong course of emotions and fluctuating our moods with stupid logics and putting yourself through tears and depression stuffs isn’t what you really deserve, isn’t it? 
So guys lets just not give a damn about what others think. Let’s just relax enjoy the days that we have and just chill out. Have peace of mind and get that charm back. And always remember no one can do wrong to you until and unless you allow them to. Stressing out isn’t the solution, go out have fun, take a break, meet new people, live-love-laugh and just be you, The Real You.
Live your life honey, you’ve got only one to.

Life

Life is a journey of obstacles and struggles that every person goes through in order to be happy. Happiness can come in any form; it depends on the person for what seems to be pleasant and seems to seek happiness to him. Happiness in itself is a mystery, some see it in admiring the beauty of nature, for some it is to be beside a lover/ soul mate/ have a happy family, for some it can be to be a topper/ successful/ earn fame and money or any other. In a gist, be it life or happiness it all depends on the persona of the individual.

I asked a couple of people, the same question: “What is life to them?” Everyone had a different answer but as their answers came along I realized that none of them actually could define life perfectly. The word itself is ambiguous and vast.

With the style of living, situations that come across and the ongoing augment of experiences makes a man look towards life in a different way. The same person who was happy a minute ago with a change in a situation can start cursing his life the very next moment.

Thus, I believe that life isn’t all about happiness. Sorrows and disappointments can come along on every step of the road that you take. But instead of sitting in a corner and crying over the mishaps and cursing the fate, destiny and all the other stuffs, we should learn to tackle it with full determination and maybe then so called Life can seem happy to all living beings.

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At the end, I just wanted to give a message that different situations don’t define us or our life in a whole. Life and the happiness that we count on every minute is all in our hand, no outsider can change it unless and until we allow them to. So people, make your own fate, and handle your life journey the way you want it and run towards your dreams, if you do so trust me you will be the happiest of all and your life will be soothing as the sound of a birds chirp.

Because you’ve got just one life babe and you got to enjoy it to the fullest, before it’s too late.

What if…

We talk about Women empowerment, we organize or participate in rallies, we organize talk shows, and any such programs that helps to raise awareness about the welfare of women.

There’s always been few questions boggling on my mind, are these acts making any difference in the society? Are the rallies conducted in the city areas or the programs telecasted on televisions making any difference on the rural areas where even the electricity hasn’t reached yet? Are the minimal field visits of the organizations set up in the valleys that work with the slogan of bringing change in women’s status, actually helping to bring a difference?

Who can give the guarantee that the principal of a school who strictly implements the rule that there should not be any violence based on the gender or any abuse done to any student, would not do the same himself, be it in the schools compound or at his home? Who can give the assurance that a politician who gives an hours speech on equalizing men and women status does not point out differences between his own son and daughter back home? Who says that a police officer who puts the rapists behind the bars would not tend to take advantage of a lonesome girl?

What if a lawyer who helps a woman fight for her rights, would not even be allowing his spouse to go to the vendors? What if a person who walks down the allies in a rally for providing justice to women, seeks for a bride whose family is capable of providing enough dowry to him? What if a boy who is taught to respect females, is secretly shooting mms for money? What if a brother who goes for late night parties with his girlfriend does not even allow his sister to talk to her male friends? What if a guy who romances every day with his partner does not let the maid to enter into the kitchen during her periods?

What if a youngster who recently gave an interview for working in a women welfare based organization, is taking advantage of the crowded bus and dashing on a girl purposely, on his way back home? What if a child who is taught about various social issues and its impacts at school, hears a heartwarming laugh of his grandfather on reading the headlines that states “A lady killed by villagers, claiming her to be a witch”?

So, I wanted to know, what kind of change are we talking about here? Is equalization of women just an outer cover? All I see is our society is draped with curtains, the truth is something else which is hidden behind the walls.

As per my opinion, rallies or talk shows does help attract attention of people on the issues but when it comes into implementation, those discussions held or the slogans chanted isn’t helping bring much of a difference. Many would not agree to it but I believe literacy and self-realization are the only factors that will help us eradicate social issues related to women and help bring equality between two beautiful creations of god.

Both men and women need to self-realize and work on the issues individually first and then together as a whole. It’s a woman who needs to be strong enough to know her worth. She should realize that she isn’t brought to this world to just give birth and take care of household chores. She needs to learn that no one else has right to take or impose decisions about her life. A girl from her early age should be taught that she is the master of her own life and no one can take that power from her, nor her husband nor her brother or her father. She needs to respect herself and be independent in her thoughts and actions so that no human can look her with disrespect. And a man should realize that a woman/girl is no toy. She is a human like them and she has her own will. One needs to understand that, she isn’t a playful material where aggression, anger, or intimidating feelings are taken out on. Instead of teaching boys should not cry, they should be taught that boys don’t make others cry.

A little change in every individual’s thought is necessary because, unless and until each individual brings a change into himself/herself, this problem won’t eradicate from the society. But if not there will be a never ending lines of “What if’s”.

It’s a high time we work on it to build a better society to live in. So, let’s get started, before it’s too late!!!

Hidden Stories- Women’s Day Special

“I stand still, still like a rock, my hands holding my head, It feels like it’s gonna burst, burst aloud!!
I am helpless, helpless as always, no idea about what to do and what not to. I just stand still, hopelessly that it’ll stop. But no, there’s no end to this. I am suffocating inside, I wanna speak out stop, stop, please stop!! But no I can’t, words simply don’t fall out of my mouth, and I stand still, still as a rock!!!

One fine day, I return from my school, last day of my final exams, so happy that I wrote my exams well and the holidays has begun. As, I entered I saw my mom sweeping the floor, dad sitting at the couch talking on the phone. I started jumping “momma my exams over, yeaa…hehee”. She just nodded her head and asked to change and get ready for lunch. I could feel a tensed environment at home.

I instantly got scared, scared that it’s gonna repeat again. As I was changing my clothes I could hear loud shouts across the hall, I thought of not going out of the room. I checked if the door was locked or not, cause I didn’t want to hear any of that. I prayed “God no not today, please don’t end this day, this way. No not today, not today….!!!”

(Thud) Loud sound!! I got up from my bed, ran to the door to check what’s going on, but I didn’t have the guts to. (Thud) Again, “I can’t resist, I need to stop it, I can’t stay like this”, I spoke to myself.
And I walked out. Right in front of the door, laid my mother, her hair strangled all over her face, fallen as if dead, and my father stood manly a foot far with the expression of anger and arrogance.

With my shaky hands I went to lift my mother, her lips were bleeding. As she stood up I saw blood on the floor, she was on her periods. My father who stays strict to his rules of menstruating women should not even touch any male, was beating her to death. I try to separate them, but the voice and their actions get louder and louder. Why are they doing this, it has become a daily story now. I read in my social studies book that drunk men beat their wife, but he isn’t even drunk here, why is it happening, I am unaware about.

I try to stop him, but he pushes me away so easily with a dash, as if I am a ball of cotton. My little hands aren’t strong enough to save my mother from my own father who seems like a devil at the moment. How disgust the situation is.

This gets worsen, worst, and I am helpless now, I stand there still, still as a rock, m helpless to stop my own parents from behaving as an enemy to each other. I stand still, hopeless that it’ll stop, I stand still, helpless to save my family from breaking down, and here once again, I stand still as rock.”- From the eyes of a bud.

Today we celebrate international women’s day. It has been marked as a holiday since decades in our calendar but I still wander how many innocent eyes are witnessing such incidents even today. I wander how many such stories are yet hidden behind the locked doors. The purpose of marking and celebrating International women’s day isn’t just about performing skits or dramas or going on a rally, it’s beyond that. And we need to realize that! The sooner we do, the better it is.

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नारी जननी, नारी शक्ति, नारी शृष्टीकि दिब्य प्रकाश्!!!

Long Distance Relationship

“I promise to love you for eternity, to be beside you in any condition of our life, to honor you each and every day, to laugh out loud with you and to cry along in your sad moments…….”, this is one of the usual conversation that gives a start to a new relation and gives a tag of “lovers” to the two beautiful soul that decide to come together as a couple. 

Falling in love is as beautiful as it sounds. Finding a right partner to share your feelings and emotions, someone who understands you even with the language of no words, someone who sees the world the way you do and someone who treasures you like a precious jewel. Once fallen in love, one tries to go beyond the extremities to make his/her lover the happiest, and to build all the beautiful memories together. 

But as we say ‘every coin has its two sides’, as the clock ticks and days passes by, there comes a time when each couple has to go under some test and mostly it comes in the form of “LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS”When I say this, i guess most of you would agree that being in a long distance relation is ‘not a cup of tea for all’. Its easy to fall in love but difficult to make it last. I’ve seen many couples failing to overcome the obstacle of distance stress, despite of the love they possess for each other. 
In a long distance relation, the frequently held dates, tight hugs, soft kisses, the look of your beloved, the eyes that spoke without any words and all the other gestures are replaced now with calls, texts, skype chats and video calls. Its  difficult to get used to it. The amount of insecurities, the fear of loosing your lover to someone else, unrealistic imagination of he/she might be cheating on you when he/she can’t receive your calls is a natural thing to arise in such a situation. Doubts and misuderstandings are the major reasons why most of us loose our hands from the most interesting affairs or relations. That’s why its necessary to understand the other person, the circumstances itself before bringing any negative thoughts in mind. 
Long distance relationships has its own beautiful moments too that nothing else can replace. 

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wishing for the time when we no longer have to wait for a certain date to meet.

Once separated, people usually realize eachothers importance in their life which probably was left underestimated before. The amount of love that used to be expressed in the forms of hugs and kisses are now told in words- long lovely texts that helps each realize the importance of oneself in their partners life. Not only that, late night chats, that makes you drowsy the next morning, each day when you miss your love of life like hell and wait for the moment to talk and express every little detail in brief, to dance with eachother through video calls in a special song, 

this heart still wants to see ur hand in mine and dance to our love tune!!
this heart still wants to see yours hand in mine and dance to our love tune!!

and sometimes crying your heart out holding your pillow-tight-to-your-chest just beacause you recalled every single moment you two spend together, it in itself is mesmerizing and beautiful. Fighting and having arguments in simplest stuffs and later on realizing your own mistake and putting every single effort to make it work out again is what I prefer to call real love. “Love is not based on romance, candle light dinners, and walks along the seashore. Infact, its based on respect, compromise, care and trust”. There will be time when other people might create problems, misunderstandings might arise, when one can’t give much time, wrong feelings and all the negative thoughts can come in mind. But, it’s all about understanding eachother and trusting your partner. When two people live in two different states; lifestyles to everything else differs, which is the major hindrance in long distance, but one needs to understand the situation, give personal space to eachother and care about every little thing. The true Lovebirds eagerly wait for the date to meet again, checking the calendar marks, to just be beside eachother holding hands and resting head in one’s beloved shoulder. This beauty of long distance relationships, where two people are dying to see eachother and express love is not to be seen in any normal relations.  Its a language that is spoken by all but understood only by heart. Putting aside all the egos and attitude two people need to work out their relation to make it last for a lifetime. If there is determination to make it last no matter the distance or any other obstacle the love will last for eternity.

In a long distance relationship, it is important to understand that the distance is just temporary and if this test can be passed with a little help from both then one can have all the dreams of living a happy life together, fulfilled in future. We need to know that, “Sometimes life just seems like chapters. Some good, some bad, but all come together to create the story of our lives.”
      
           “No matter the distance or any test you gotta give in life, just treasure your beloved and you’ll live a life you always dreamt of!!!”

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It’s all about determination guys, you all can if you will to make it sustain forever!!!

 Because every test and sacrifice is worthy for the person you love like crazy.

–Shraddha Mainali

म र मेरो नेपाल

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थाहा छैन के हुँदैछ अचेल,
कता-कता डर लाग्न थाल्यो अचेल,
किन उजाड लाग्छ यो ठाउ,
किन बिरनो लाग्छ यो देश!

म चाहन्न डुब्न भावनामा,
चाहन्न हाङ्गाबाट झारेको पात जस्तो हुन,
चाहन्न धागोबाट चुडिएको चङ्गा जस्तो हुन,
चाहन्न कसैको लहलहैमा हिंड्न!

म त चाहन्छु केवल एक स्वतन्त्र देश,
चाहन्छु बन्न एक लगनशिल र कर्तव्यपरायण व्यक्ति,
चाहन्छु एक ज्वाजल्यमान भविष्य,
चाहन्छु चहार्न यही गाउ र देश!

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तर यदी देश नै रहेन भने गर्नसक्छु म के ?
बन्न सक्छु म कसरी एक कर्णधार नेपाली ?
के रहला त्यो इतिहास विर गोर्खालिको ?
के सदा रहनेछ मेरो देश ?

उठ! उठ! नेपाली, अब भैसक्यो बेला!
देशको लागि केहि गर्ने र फेरी एकपटक इतिहास रच्ने,
मिलेर बनाउ अब सुन्दर देश,
अनी देखाउ सबलाई हाम्रो भेष!!!

— श्रद्धा मैनाली —

मेरो देश मेरो नेपाल!
मेरो देश मेरो नेपाल!